ALL ALONE WITH NO WHERE TO POST

WHICH IS WEIRD BECAUSE I KEEP TAKING SELFIES

ALL ALONE WITH NO WHERE TO POST IS A PROJECT THAT SEEKS TO EXPLORE HOW I AM SPIRALING OUT, SPECIFICALLY WITH REGARDS TO MY RECENT AND EVER MOUNTING ANXIETY THAT WITHOUT SOCIAL MEDIA NOBODY REALIZES HOW HOT I AM.

HAVE YOU EVER MET SOMEONE IN PERSON AND REALIZED THEY ARE LESS HOT THAN THEY APPEAR ON THE INTERNET BUT ULTIMATELY ARE STILL HOT? THIS IS BECAUSE A PERSON’S PHYSICAL [IN PERSON] HOTNESS FLUCTUATES WHEREAS A PERSON’S DIGITAL HOTNESS CAN BE CONSTANTLY MAINTAINED. A PERSON’S MEAN/MEDIAN/MODE HOTNESS IS CULTURALLY COMPOSED OF BOTH THEIR PHYSICAL AND DIGITAL PRESENCE; THE TWO ARE NOT SEPARATED IN OUR PERCEPTION OF THEM. IF YOU FACETUNE TO HAVE CLEAR SKIN IN MANY WAYS, IN THE COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS AND IN ENERGY AND IN VIBE, YOU HAVE CLEAR SKIN. IT IS SIMPLE. AND IT IS TRUE.

ILL TAKE THIS MOMENT TO CLARIFY THAT I AM NOT ATTEMPTING TO ENFORCE A DICHOTOMY BETWEEN THE DIGITAL AND THE PHYSICAL. IN FACT I MUST STRESS THAT I AM DOING THE OPPOSITE. THEY ARE BOTH EQUALLY REAL ALTHOUGH EXIST WITHIN DIFFERING PARAMETERS. TO BE HOT DIGITALLY IS AS TANGIBLE AS BEING HOT PHYSICALLY, SO MUCH SO THAT WE COULD SIMPLY USE THE WORD ‘HOT’, AS THE USE OF ‘DIGITAL’ AND ‘PHYSICAL’ PREFIXES IS ULTIMATELY MISLEADING. HOWEVER THE THEN SUBSEQUENT IMPLICATION IS THAT EVERYONE IS CURATING THEIR HOTNESS IN A WAY THAT IS INCLUSIVE TO THE DIGITAL LANDSCAPE, WHICH AS WE HAVE PREVIOUSLY TOUCHED ON, I AM FAILING TO DO.

SINCE I HAVE DELETED MY SOCIAL MEDIA MY FEARS HAVE BEEN COALESCING AROUND THIS IDEA THAT WITHOUT A SOCIAL MEDIA PRESENCE I AM UNABLE TO CURATE MY OWN DIGITAL HOTNESS NARRATIVE. THIS PROJECT ( RE: FREE WORDPRESS SITE ), WHILE LARGELY UNSEEN, IS AN ATTEMPT TO SOOTHE MY RATTLING PSYCHE WITH THE KNOWLEDGE THAT SOMEWHERE OUT THERE, AMONGST THE DIGITAL CLUTTER, THERE ARE PHOTOS IN WHICH I LOOK EXTREMELY GOOD.

I KEEP READING MANIFESTOS WITH THE WORD CYBER IN THEM: CYBER FEMINISM. CYBER DYSTOPIA.

MAYBE AT THIS POINT THAT PREFIX IS ALSO UNNECESSARY. MAYBE IT’S JUST FEMINISM. MAYBE IT’S JUST A DYSTOPIA.